By Charlotte Safir, LCDC
"Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity."1
Step Two is specifically designed for the mental obsession. I, in and of myself, cannot remove an obsession. The word “believe” is a verb. There is an action. Believe means “to allow”. I am restored to sanity as a result of allowing something into my consciousness other than my own insane thinking and feeling. I find it intriguing that right after I identify the problem in Step One--no control, no choice, no power and my need for God--comes this simple solution.
A Power greater than myself that can restore me to my right mind. There are only two questions I have to answer. “Am I willing to believe there is a power greater than me?“ and “Is it all or nothing?” I don’t even have to have an idea about what this power is other than it be loving and caring. It started with my willingness to reach out and practice the rigorous honesty in the First Step. I had to get out of my head and into action. I have to be willing to let someone else know exactly what I am thinking and feeling. This meant I had to talk about what was really on my mind and in my heart. I had to be willing to be vulnerable. This simple action saved me from going back to using and drinking time and again when the obsession was so intense, I could not imagine it could ever be silenced. Without exception, every time I reached out for help, I received it. I called women at 1,2,3,4 o’clock in the morning and they all got up and talked to me. They each said the strangest thing--that I had helped them more than they had helped me. This was a clear demonstration of this Power working through others to help me stay sober although I did not recognize it at the time.
This Power continued to lead me as I went to meetings and heard exactly what I needed to hear at the precise moment I needed to hear it. As I worked through all the Steps, I became more conscious of this Power, myself and you. I came to understand the intrinsic connection between us all. The Second Step tells me I cannot do recovery alone. I don’t have to figure anything out. I can begin to have an experience with this awesome Power that keeps me sober, gives me a new life and reveals more and more truth as I become more teachable and place more reliance on God than self.
1Alcoholics Anonymous: The Story of How Many Thousands of Men and Women Have Recovered from Alcoholism (New York City: Alcoholics Anonymous World Services, Inc., 1939), 59.